Limbo - An XXXTentacion Eulogy

Limbo - An XXXTentacion Eulogy

It’s difficult to write about someone you were strongly against objectively. But maybe there is a place for you in Limbo. Rest, Jahseh.

Limbo - An XXXTentacion Eulogy

It’s difficult to write about someone you were strongly against objectively. But maybe there is a place for you in Limbo. Rest, Jahseh.

XXXTentacion is dead, and now everyone has an opinion.

Look, it’s a horrible way to go. No one -- especially someone so young -- deserves to die in that fashion, and then have their dead body displayed all over social media for the world to stop and stare. I saw the same TMZ photo shared nine times across Twitter and Instagram, and I can only imagine how much worse it gets. It was a murder eerily foreshadowed due to what we, at this time, can only assume was just a robbery until proven otherwise. I have my conspiracy theories, but that’s another article for another day.

Jahseh Dwayne Onfroy, the deceased rapper known as XXXTentacion, or X for short, was born on January 23, 1998. He rose to fame through SoundCloud in 2016, and his song “Look At Me” went viral. X was famous for his experimental rap, lo-fi trap beats, and pain-infused lyrics. He sang about depression, pain, hurt, and exuded his troubles in his music. If only that’s where they could have stayed.

X was violent at a very young age, stabbing a man for messing with his mother at just six years old. It’s hard to believe someone that angry inside could be capable of feeling anything else. His music proved otherwise. Songs like “SAD!,” a track that pays homage to heartbreak and depression, and “Joslyn Flores,” a song dedicated to a friend who committed suicide, showcase how vulnerable the rapper truly was.

There is no doubt he had gone through a lot of hard shit in his life, but his violent nature persisted, and only grew darker as he got older. Between his rocky relationship with his mother, his homophobic juvenile detention beatdown when we was locked up, and his ex-pregnant girlfriend’s abuse stories , it’s nearly impossible to think of him beyond his antagonist ways. It’s like an anti-Robin Hood effect -- the bad guy gets shot and killed...by another bad guy(s). It doesn’t make it right. X was troubled, vulnerable, smart, and talented. He wore his heart on his fists and injected them into his song lyrics. He was currently on probation, awaiting his fate for beating his ex-girlfriend, but he was robbed the chance to do any right by his way -- and his victims were robbed the justice they deserved from his abuse. This murder did nothing but humanize him.

To humanize is to recognize and understand flaws. With understanding flaws, forgiveness follows. I don’t know if everyone can give this to X, even after his demise. Twenty years old, just shy of his 21st, never serving justice, no more chances to make new music or to know whether he would reach his full potential to do right. But in true XXXtentation fashion, if we could hear his thoughts right now, aside from being furious at being murdered -- as an avid gamer, he’s probably really pissed at missing the chance to play Kingdom Hearts III.

June 18, 2018 is the day your heart stopped and you froze in time. You won’t be remember for your great reputation, but maybe some people can find solace in the music you left behind and learn from all your mistakes. In your song “before I close my eyes” you asked the universe that you hoped it wasn’t too late for you.

It’s difficult to write about someone you were strongly against objectively. But maybe there is a place for you in Limbo. Rest, Jahseh.